It’s been almost 22 months since I’ve posted an update. God hasn’t stopped working (or nudging), nor have I lost my burden for this ministry or love for learning more about film-making. Life simply happened.
Shortly after my last post in January 2010, I learned that I would become a father for the first time in the Fall of 2010. While this may, on the surface explain my absence from the blog, there’s simply more to the story.
The Personal Side: For those of you who have a personal relationship and history with me, you know that I had long ago abandoned the dream of ever having children. It was an incredibly tough dream to let go of and an even harder dream to be willing to ever consider grasping ahold of again. I turned 40 the month of my last post and whenever pressed on the possibility of considering parenthood by my wife, I became increasingly angry — the pain of having that hope dashed too much to even think about. Yet, God was at work. Not that He isn’t always at work, but sometimes He works in specific ways in answer to specific prayers. Mind you, they were not my prayers, in this case, but the prayers of a loving wife, pleading with the Lord to soften her husband’s heart to the idea of children. With tears running down my cheeks, we praised God together as my wife called me into our bathroom that early Winter morn. Not only had God answered her prayers, but He answered my prayers… not the one prayed days or months before, not even years… but, decades before. He restored my dream not simply by resurrecting it, but by moving past the dream stage to making it a reality, even without me asking.
The months that followed were filled with the usual goings-on of soon-to-be parents (and at 40, there seemingly was more on the list to get done, especially as time seems to move faster than when I was 20). We also decided I would stay home with our son once he was born, at least for a term.
We welcomed our son in the fall of 2010 and needless to say, our world has changed forever and we are abundantly blessed to share the responsibility of raising him to love and serve our Savior.
But, God hasn’t stopped resurrecting dreams, only heaped additional blessings. We look forward to welcoming a daughter in early 2012.
The Ministry Side: Outside of a small project for Church, there just hadn’t seemed like there were very many open doors. (The project was a dramatic scripture reading for church which can be viewed below:)
A couple of years ago I was asked to be a part of our Men’s Ministry team at Church (which had been inactive for over a decade). I accepted the invitation and looked forward to being involved, growing and sharing. As is so often the case, the leadership team never really got things rolling — as with the past, months of inactivity turned into years.
Whew! That’s a lot of back story, only to say that the last 22 months have found me, and by default, this film ministry, sitting rather quietly in God’s waiting room. I’ve had a few small projects to work on over the past 22 months, as time permitted, yet most were each on the commercial site of film-making, yet nothing that seemed to be really moving the ministry side forward. That is, until recently.
A couple of months ago, the Spirit began stirring the waters and calling out to each member of our men’s ministry team, inviting us to “jump in”. We began meeting together and planning the launch of the program. Feeling and seeing an opportunity to utilize film as a vehicle of communication, I offered to shoot and edit some short promotional videos for the roll-out. We spent a few hours on a Sunday a couple of weeks ago shooting and I’ve been editing and praising God ever since. No longer in the waiting room, I’m now in His presence as He has called a group of us together, and meeting in His name, He has fulfilled His promise and has been amongst us.
I am so excited, so blessed, and so on fire… and it’s contagious. Our group is excited and incredibly moved by how God is speaking through this medium. Our Church is excited.
It was dark in that waiting room, and quiet. I hadn’t noticed that I was not alone as I sat there. I was focused on my “stuff” and it was only after I was called into the light that I realized that perhaps “we” had been there together for a reason.
“There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.”
It’s now time to speak.
P.S. – Keep watch! I will be posting videos as they are “aired”.